09.30.24 ☾ 11:58pm ☆ hello welcome back into existance

10.01.24 ☾ 11:21 am ☆ i can't im going to fucking crash out. this fat white bitch wont stop chewing ice loud as fuck out of her stanley. she's been going at it all class. since i sat down i started hearing fucking chomp chomp chomp chomp. like ENOUGGGHHHH i fucking can't like im going to crash out.
in my peripheral vision i could see her reaching for her ugly stanley cup and then fucking gobbling down ice. like i understand... eating ice is good. 0 calories and anemia what not. but in class ???? the entire lecture....... you're a disgrace. like she chewed the entire cup of ice. and even when there was no ice left in the cup, she would still pick up the damn cup to try and get any last bit out. like holy shit did someone starve you.... do we call bella hadid.... why are you so desperate for ice.
i am a nice person, chewing noises just upset me

10.21.24 ☾ 1:47am ☆ welcome me back into this space. i am so happy. i am geeking. i am geeking so hard. it is cold, it will be chilly for the next day, perhaps.. that was our fall, next it will be 90 degrees and then it will be 30 degrees.
i am laying in josh's sex couch. where he does not have sex he ran to his pc after he saw his friends get on valorant. this def not a sex couch. yes i am hating. "youre such a hater, ur just hating to hate" yes i am. i am feeling evil tonight. i couldn't find my pain medicine in time and i started crying so now it is everyone's problem

10.22.24 ☾ 2:34am ☆ national nut day, what a glorious holiday.. i will celebrate this holiday by getting severely drunk. it is simply what i must do. we have a bottle of pinot, and we will be eating some kind of fuck ass meal with it. & it will taste awful but i will be having 7 bottles.
i fear i look like a femcel. i looked in the mirror after i have been hunched over trying to figure out how to make stars appear on this stupid fucking website for 2 hours and i look.. like an incel. i look like a run a memepage. i think i should start a memepage. take us out the hood fr "you look like you would run a meme page" - bronze 3 player

cta icon cat icon cat icon this is evrything that runs through my head again. soon enough i will have my entire streamline of thoughts on here and i can shoot myself in the head i am so EXITED

2:49am ☆ this is the merthodsim gona cum

10.22.24 ☾ 10:38 ☆sexy che guevera... i feel like it is a good halloween costume but i dont know if people will get it. if im just sexy communist then im every other bitch. sexy che is so much funnier. but i need a beret, i need to borrow a coat from my dad

11.06.24 ☾ 1:46 am ☆ my knuckles are wrapped in gauze and my thigh has makeshift bandages plastered on it. it is that time of the year again. trump just won. i am reading josh's essay to see what im up against. will report back to see if i am fucked.

1:53 am ☾ we are so fucked.

2:31 am ☾ i refuse to watch rick and morty. future me, if u watched rick and morty. u killed a puppy somewhere in the world, a puppy dropped dead because of you. i think i should seperate my writings, somewhere. or compile them. but i am so lazy.

01.18.25 ☾ 11:52 pm ☆ crazy how all you do is scroll on pinterest. you stupid bitch. ong i dont even know how to make this work. i want to make it pretty because i am vain and most things i care about in life have to be made pretty or ele i will not care for them and.i lowkey find that a little absurd like what would happen if eveyrthing was just ugly. why do i have this compulsive need to make eveyrthing cute and pretty i have no idea maybe there is something that is severely HFUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YOU GIVE ME MY FUCKING LINE BACK IM GOING TO FCKINGG KILL YOIB
instant instant feedback dont play the track over and over in your hesd again you stupid fuckign schizo
why blueberry lowkey cute geeking out at the hookah lounge what else will i have acess to doing redacted redacted redacted
i fuckign love moss balls i hope you realize how much i fucking love moss and moss balls
machine machine tell me what to do! how to go forward without all this bitch done is scroll on pinterest fuck kinda lock in session is this.... useless ass bitch perfect obscure images ues yes yes give me it now emo ahhhhhh lmaoaoaoaoao look at where yore at now ur at bop university i hope that this is all that youy have ever wanted

01.25.25 ☾ 1:43 am ☆ im sure i will. i am hopeful for a future. i can't fathom ever having kids right now. and yes i am sure that is due to my adolescence but sometimes i question if i will ever truly be sure of myself. i feel uneasy in myself most of the time. i have been wishful of this gloom not coming over but it has been a while and i am not sure if its ever really going to go away. i don't know if it gets better.
i am only kind of sure each time. and i have a very worried and tight grasp on this dream. sometimes when i leave myself alone, my breathing gets labored. i feel the true weight of it when i let myself be in silence. what could you possibly want from me. what good does it do to let these thoughts run rampent. they will sit pretty in a box and i will go back to only seeing whats infront of me. im sure i could control this part of me. one day im sure i will get ahold of it. maybe i should get on antidepressants its feeling heavier

wow girl lets go drink some water and yes you should shoot yourself in the head i do agree. xoxo